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November 07 bad bad moodFking bad mood .... can ?? dont mind me ...
for people who really interest about it , i dont feel like explain about the incident .
arggghh , even feel like slapping someone today but i know i cant do that .
ended up , the anger in my heart makes me feel crying . damnnnnnn ...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ....... grrrrrr ....wanna whack somebodyyyyy T_T
November 01 driver wanted , transport wanted !!!duh... miserable life starts again cause im facing transport problem for the whole STPM month like SPM .
but luckily that time a friend who name looipeizhen willing to fetch me.
people who are free and willing to fetch me , do check on STPM timetable and let me know when u are able to fetch me . lols
kerjasama anda amat saya hargai. thanks alot .
19 / 11 / 09 [ thursday ] 2 - 430pm biology 2
23 / 11 / 09 [ monday] 8 - 11am pengajian am 2
24 / 11 / 09 [ tuesday ] 8 - 1030am chemistry 2
25 / 11 / 09 [ wednesday ] 8 - 11am maths T1
1 / 12 / 09 [ tuesday ] 2 - 5pm maths T2
7 / 12 / 09 [ monday ] 2 - 345pm biology 1
9 / 12 / 09 [ wednesday ] 2 - 4pm pengajian am 1
10 / 12 / 09 [ thursday ] 2 - 4pm chemistry 1 October 17 down to hellfucking fireworks .... which used to be my favourite but not these few days ...
once the fireworks burst , my tears roll down ...
depression comes to me , again .
i cried for uncountable times today . someone please bring me to a far far place which i cant listen any firework's sound , can ???
i wish im deaf , i wish i can undergo hibernation . October 06 6.10.09today i did not join classmates' plan for yt's birthday celebration because we have other plan at night . XD
the celebration supposed held on last saturday but we postponed .
so everything is kelam kabut .
thought wanted give her surprise but due to the kelam kabutness , she knows everything. aiks .
anyway, thanks god she feels happy . i think because she play since morning until mid night huh ? haha
after tuition , we yum cha at station one . meet a unexpected person , hanqiang.
he dare yt to eat the whole small cake without using spoon or fork .
after that takes few pictures and we go amazon . someone interested in pool so much ~
something funny happen and i laugh until stomachache .
im a lousy player .. sobs
meet a friend which almost 5 years did not meet. really surprise that he still remember and able to recognise me. @.@
unexpected to meet him there cause i thought he usually at nilai.
suddenly memories flash back ... ouchhhh,i miss those moment at camp .
 old watch but with new belt XD
 ding ding dang dang ... i know there are too many stuff on my hand. ><
  she trying to put the whole cake into her mouth .
  up : vio , schieh , hqiang
down : ying, yt , my
i look tired .... @.@ August 31 happy national day哈哈，给那个抄袭本小姐的24个字，欠本小姐rm 1200 版权费的人，我仍然在这里写下了东西。所以呢，你的判断错了哦。
昨晚是国庆日前夕，本人是闷了到发霉啦。堂姐在家一直跟我碎碎念，真好奇她口水都不会干，嘴巴都不会累得吗 ？有点沮丧，原本有的去飞机场的，结果车没位子啦。
打给好几个人，可惜那好几个人都不在这里。为什么？上网时，大家似乎很惊讶我没出去。-_- 突然电话响了，那个欠了本小姐一大笔债的人打来的，说是太无聊，但啊，我怎么觉得你有点想向我炫耀你在哪里，躺在人造沙滩旁的懒椅，观赏夜空中闪烁的星星的感觉。无论如何，谢谢你的长途电话啦，把我哄笑了。
近2点，想关电脑时，发现你也在线上。思索你昨夜为何会给我那电话号码 [因为之前跟你要过，你都不理睬] ， 更不理解的是，号码最后两个数字是刻意的还是碰巧的。你的回答好犹豫，我也不知该开心或否。若是刻意的，那又代表些什么呢？除了那两个数字，其他的数字有其他的意思吗？ 当你说你在买了新电话是已经储存我的电话号码在里面时，还有你的最后一句话让我心中有种莫名的感动。真的谢谢你啦。回想起当时，早晨的闹钟，长途电话里陪在家乡的我解闷，关于苹果的事等等，或与那记忆早已消失在你脑海里，但那些对我来说，都是怎么都遗忘不了的。接着，天天得梦伴着我入眠。=）
大家，国庆日快乐！！！ August 28 bye bye ~happy belated birthday to engbeng and jackson . bye bye to pravin [ left msia to india on 26.8.09] , hon seng & lisa [ left msia to NY on 28.8.09 ] , shinken & hooihar [ leaving msia to NY on 29.8.09 ] .
August 26 sorry除了对不起， 我不知道我该说些什么了。
欺骗了你，我当然不觉得好过，几天以来我都没睡好。
再次的对不起，妈，让你失望了。
祈求您会好过些。
也谢谢这几天在我身边问候我，关心我的人。感激不尽。
soon ， shuang ，ying ， vio ， ivan。 August 02 feeling blue T_T功课压力让我差点放弃读了整整1年又两个月的初中六。压抑在心里的煎熬终于承受不住了，我崩溃了，哭了好久，沉默了几天。由于情绪，脾气，样样都很糟，若对任何人不理会或发脾气，请见谅，对不起。星期五，由于爸妈的偏心，让我的泪腺再次爆发，反锁在房里，那种被离弃和失望的感觉，真的很痛。星期六早上补完习回家，看到妈带妹逛街买了大包小包，看到妹笑得那么灿烂，我的心是多么的痛。我，是那个每次在家自动帮忙做家务，但为何得到一大堆东西的人是她，她从不帮忙做任何事情。为何她总是这么容易得到她所想要的东西。有时回想，我这些年来所做的一切真的很不值得；或许，我以后不需要牺牲我做功课或午睡的时间来做这些不值得的东西了。世界总是那么不公平。再次将自己锁在房里，因为只要看到他们的脸，听到他们的声音，想到他们，心就很痛很痛。对，或许我在嫉妒，或许我太敏感了。但这不就是巨蟹座的特征吗？容易受伤害，容易犹豫等等。[我每次做的心理测验，成绩总是极度悲观，犹豫的。]
好像找人陪我散心，但我实在不知道可以找谁了。此外，害怕自己控制不了，随时随地会泪流满面，所以打消这念头了。毕竟不是每个人都能接受的。沉默整天，泪水也不是在眼睛打滚，我已经在控制了。恨自己，为何就不能坚强点。有时候，真的很讨厌这个家，虽然并没有什么大事情，但对很敏感的我，这已经足以弄碎我的心了。啊。。。。。。
晚上外婆生日，若不是因为外婆，我绝对不会跟他们一起吃饭。庆幸的是，过后跟旧同学有烧烤派对。跟朋友倾诉，我好多了。谢了。
July 14 boh lat节目太多， 功课太多， 回忆太多， 把我压得几乎喘不过气。 放过我吧。 好想有个肩膀依靠， 更想能静静的休息， 到海边吸取海洋咸咸的味道， 或到充满芬多精的森林呼吸新鲜空气。 但，一切只是梦。 May 10 7- 10 .5. 09weeee,guess what ... we won the third place in choir competition distirct level . XD the competition was held in smk dato hamzah,pandamaran on last thursday [ 7.5.09 ] . saw many lengluiS and 2 leng chaiS . =p
  8.5.09 [ friday ]
when i online,i was shock when i was invited to our classmates' conversation.everyone still awake though is late. suddenly everyone was hungry,then i suggested to go mamak.that time was already 1 something. got 2 girls are not allowed to come out that late,so we changed our plan. as most of us are not going to school in the morning ,we planned to eat bak kut teh as breakfast .woke up at 830am ,reached there at 9am. the feeling was damn nice,while others are studying in school ; we ate bak kut teh and talked . lols. then when came back home,saw many Honda's car parking outside my house and neighbour's hosue. i knew something happen. later,i saw one van with A COFFIN inside and undertaker at my neighbour's house . >< around 1215am,went mamak cause i really hungry and wanted to eat maggi mee goreng so much. 230am came back home and slept.
happy birthday ,yong wei .
9.5.09 [ saturday]
my schedule was damn tight. lols . tuition at 830- 1030am . then drove to old town bukit tinggi with vio to meet ying,fern,yt,jackson and beng. all of us were wearing dark colours of shirt except ying n fern.haha. around 130pm when fern and beng left,we went home too. meeting at kaikan at 2- 530pm . came back home to put my stuff and get lighter and a birthday candle , headed to jeth. classmates celebrate iandy's birthday over there. rush back to home cause need to go kajang to attend my newphew's full moon's party. buffet ... my favourite . XD . on the journey coming back,i was damn sleepy. coundn't really sleep in car cause is cold . reached home at around 12am . online cause yesterday i didnt on and got scolded from vio today morning. aiks .
happy birthday ,jacklyn.
10.5.09 [ sunday ]
thought wanted to study ,but i felt so sleepy for the whole day. argh .... anyway,happy mother's day and happy birthday,shin chuan . April 03 questionsjust finish bathe,feel confy with the smell of johnson baby body shampoo ~~~ XD buahaha
returned to hometown for ching ming last saturday night,miss the chance to participate in earth hour activity,cause i was in car that time. feel moody cause thought want go KL and see the city in dark ...
anyway,this week see many people clean and pray their i-dont-know-whose-grave opposite my school, dont know why i just feel so happy .. so do the school field. many students are pratising for football competition which will be held in my school , bola baling competition and tennis competition . the field and grave which are normally empty suddenly become so 'lively' ...
what should i do now ? study or do homework ?
somtimes i feel fed up when i look at the tons of homework . monthly exam is on next week but instead of giving us more time to revise,why teachers are still rushing for the syllabus and giving so much homework ? stupid. i just dont understand . im not manage to finish all the homework by the day itself though i do not watch tv,do not lepak or even online which is a must for everyday. have to procrastinate till the next day cause seriously the homework is ALOT.
how to reduce the eye bags,dark eye cycle ,wrinkles and fats ?
when i look myself in the mirror,i feel depressed ... grr .. all of them are getting more obvious on me !! all these granted from fussiness of school teachers ,cocurricular, tuition and homework. i do homework till late at nite .... duhh .. i got no time to take care of them ... sometimes really feel regret to choose form 6 . so people out there dont tease me or comment on me when u see me . thanks.
should i think of the function of the osim uRobic and treadmills at home and reuse them ?
but i got no timeeeeee ....
how to dont sleep but at the same time can maintain the alertness,energy and spirit on the second day ?
chicken essence dont help =/ coffee might do,but i dont really like it .
when only can i get enough of sleep ?
im lack of sleep .. 3-630am ... always feel sleepy in sch and tuition.
seriously 24 hours per day is not enough . how eh ? im outdated ,i got no time to surf net and dont know what happened around the world and my friends .
not even have a chance to chat nicely with 'huang hou niang niang' and wish her on her birthday ,have no time to accompany shuang when she need my help,no time to care for the others . sorry and hope u guys understand yea .. =) i miss all of u ~
good luck for whoever having monthly test or those who waiting for results .
January 10 run away ~Have so much to tell but I wouldnt cause no one would understand I guess .
Am helpless,loss and maybe a little lonely.
WTF,dont enjoy school life nowadays,the stress make me go crazy and feel down all the while.
Feel like run away,anyone willing to bring me to somewhere else ??
just like the song ' 带我走' by 杨丞琳。 October 28 memory经过了一星期的煎熬，泡泡的天空中的乌云渐渐散了。
她看到了早晨的阳光柔柔的洒在大地，脸上露出了笑容。 在微笑的那一刻，她回忆起以前酸甜苦辣的时刻， 五味杂陈的心情突涌而来。。 因为无论是喜，怒，哀，乐，她的朋友都陪伴着她度过。 while listening to high school musical 3 theme song - we're all in together ,
suddenly miss my friends so so so much !!!!
think back those days we been together,awww, bubbles feel like crying already.
Thank You [especially those person in the pictur below] For :
.-~*' ☆o(‧""‧)o☆*·~-.
the accompany in msn or wherever when i bored, i study in the middle of the night, i having problems
.-~*' ☆o(‧""‧)o☆*·~-.
fetch me out when i feeling down or stress or when i miss u/u all
.-~*' ☆o(‧""‧)o☆*·~-.
the care and love for me although i seldom/never show that to u .-~*' ☆o(‧""‧)o☆*·~-.
the support when i wanted to give up doing something *still remember fern n ying told me : we'll stand by ur side always when preparing performance for pbc
and
fern even wrote that in the birthday card. =)
.-~*' ☆o(‧""‧)o☆*·~-.
the endurance when i drive u mad as my tempered is bad
.-~*' ☆o(‧""‧)o☆*·~-. patiently listen to my complains as i like to grumble alot .-~*' ☆o(‧""‧)o☆*·~-.
the precious advice, guidance for studies and help
seriously,i appreciate and treasure all that. ^^ 衷心的感谢
listen to this song while viewing this blog
ying , vio , ting , fern
AK : front - s.lee , k.sing
middle - tes , a.how , jon , a.boy
back : vin , k.lung
front : h.guan , h.cze , s.chieh
back : s.hau , p.hooi
s.chuan
h.guan & w.kiat
jackson & beng
ivan , me , ting , ying
obito aka chew.s.y
ken
vincent
edwin wong wai kit [ cant find his picture ]
jacklyn
Makan
makan la y.ting
celebration for sc & jh ' s birthday [modern]
celeration for yx's birthday [modern]
monoruko boo's day ? -_- [pizza]
celebration for spm-finally-end [pizza] [halo cafe] bankrupt already x_X
School
front : ting, fern , ME , ying back : vio , y.yih
y.xin & me
me & p.zhen
p.zhen , bubb [me] , ying
miss their very short hair
form 6 uniform
praticing dance for chinese society performance
when everyone serious in doing something ps: ting,miss ur uniform ?
adohai,monkey =x
Beach
penang
y.yih , ting , bubbles
redang
Prom night
sri lethia iu day
memory trace
sc , ks , hg , jh , dk , bc
Ktv
the same pose , the board smile
miss u guys like hell,babi T_T hope all my friends will smile or laugh like them everyday !! Friends Forever ~ love yea,muacks !! October 13 有点心碎我真的那么白，那么憔悴吗 ？？
有那么夸张，那么恐怖吗？？？
我也不想的啊。。
谁不羡慕粉嫩，白里透红的皮肤啊。。
非常感谢你们的关心，但说实在的我宁愿你们不说。。
回想当年考试，
开夜车都有人陪伴，
真的好幸福唷。。
October 12 =(tomorrow is my final exam till friday ..and i not really prepare yet.
today planned to study biology [at least 2 chapters] ,who knew ..
i cant really study cause of the noisiness at home ...
end up,only finish one chapter for the whole day ..
feel like wanna play under the rain now ...
anyone want to play with me ??
sobsss .... September 18 好久好久突然间发觉，好久好久。。
我没运动了
我没旷课了 我没换耳环了 我没骑脚踏车了 我没开怀大笑了 我没阅读爱情小说了 我没被邀请出席喜酒了 我没像以前那样刁蛮了 我没随身带着相机拍照了 我没去问候与关心朋友了 我没参加轰轰烈烈的派对了 我没觉得生活很轻松或平静了 我没无时无刻望着天空发呆了 我没更换friendster的资料与背景了
我没跟整大班朋友逛街，在嘛嘛档聊天了 我没像以前那样把字写得那么小和整齐了 我没像以前那样，不睡觉但第二天仍然能精神奕奕地上学了 我没向高挂在夜空中的月亮或发出闪闪星光的星星默默许下心愿了 哎。。
August 28 the petriotik ME !!my class is so patriotik and we gonna perform on stage tomorrow for the celebration of malaysia independent day .
have to wear the very loose and big size punjabi suit ,stand at the first row somemore..goshh
all the best to me !!
have to continue memorise lyric of 'tanggal 31' and 'cemerlang gemilang terbilang' and sleep ~~ March 05 camwhoring ?? XDI just realized that my smile is kinda sweet.haha,perasan ? After removed braces, i got more confidence to smile [er,to myself just to cheer myself ><] Before that,i seldom smile.even if i smile,i wouldn’t show my teeth ~ Thanks to my dad who sponsored and let me got the chance to wear braces appreciate that !!
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